I guess it is hard not to jump on the New Year New Me bandwagon but usually I do very well at avoiding it. New Years resolutions are not for me. They always seem destined to fail and I will always find a reason to start them ‘tomorrow’. So instead I come up with a word for the year. Something to concentrate on and something to build on during the whole year. This year my word of the year is ‘positivity’.
Last Years Word
Last year my word was “Bold”. I was struggling with low confidence and life felt quite turbulent, with things that I couldn’t control or influence. Ironically much like this year…. But part of my plan to combat that was to do things that put me out of my comfort zone but that I was in control of. I boosted my blog and streamlined what I wrote about and when. I started YouTube and although I didn’t quite get it how I want it, I am happy and now have a much more structured plan for it. On top of that I increased the amount my face showed up on Instagram and I made that platform a positive place for me to be rather than a depressing one.
This year it felt appropriate for my word of the year to be positivity. I am not a naturally positive person. Whilst I wouldn’t necessarily call myself a negative person I can be on the negative side of realism. This is what I want to change or at least mellow. I want to be able to see the Silver Lining of a situation and to be able to focus on that and not the other stuff of any given situation.
2017; A Year To Forget
If I am being honest the 2017 is a year for us to forget. As a family we started the year with high hopes but these were quickly and constantly dashed. Days, weeks and even months were lived on the edge: caused by events completely outside of our control. Life changed with Ellie starting school and it effected us in ways I didn’t imagine possible. The thing that bothers me about it all is that I let these things stress me out and make me miserable. I couldn’t change it and whilst these were not trials that you can easily embrace there were things that happened in 2017 that I should concentrate more on. Yes Ellie started school and we all found it extremely hard. But she settled. More than that; she blossomed. She is happy and therefore so are we. The girls bond as sisters has continued to grow. Hubby and I are closer than ever and that has been something we have been able to boast year on year so I guess we must be doing something right and perhaps he doesn’t irritate me as much as I think. Only perhaps though.
2018 Will Be Far From Positive
We already know 2018 is going to be a tough year in our house for various reasons so this year seemed to be the perfect one to try and change my thought processes and to really concentrate on the positives in our lives. Times may be hard but good things are and should be coming. Hubby has started a longer commute. In many ways this is a bad thing but with it comes the positivity of a new start. Trixie will start preschool in September which she is so ready for and I really wish they would take her earlier. Ellie is already starting to show what a lovely young lady she is turning into and I can’t wait to continue seeing this development as she enters her fifth year in our lives. I myself have plans for my hobbies and interests and with the promise of 15 hours a week to myself come September I have an end goal in sight.
To help start the year off well I am doing Veganuary. Ok, I am cheating a little and only doing it 5 days a week but I am doing it for the whole of January and I am feeling positive about the long term changes that should come to our overall diet and lifestyle.
It Won’t Be Easy But It Will Be Worth It
I know it won’t be easy to suddenly change my whole outlook and thought process. I am trying to undo thirty odd years of thinking a particular way. Perhaps it isn’t even possible but I am going to give it a good go. And because I have all year to try this I know I have time to practice and develop my methods to achieve it. No New Years Resolutions as such just a New Year Goal.