For weeks now I have been in denial about the fact that we are about to be saying goodbye to Preschool. I know Trixie has yet to start and that really we are not completely done with it as a family but Ellie is done. She starts school in September and with the new beginning there comes an end.
Technically Ellie’s preschool is a private nursery but for the past year she has only attended on a preschool basis for the free 15 hours. She started going there when she was 2 on a nursery basis. We had to pull her out of her original nursery due to safeguarding concerns so when we arrived to drop her off for settling in sessions at this new place we were understandably nervous about what we would find outside of the official tour.
We had no need to worry. Ellie settled in really quickly. The staff there were so supportive of her needs and when I quit work and had to pull her out due to the cost everyone was quite sad. A couple of weeks later I had a call from the manager saying they had a free space available and they would like to offer it to Ellie. Honestly I jumped at it! I was not keen on trying to settle here into yet another preschool environment if I didn’t have to and with only a year left before she started school this really was the best option.
Now we find ourselves at the end of the year. Only 6 weeks until Ellie starts school! I am not sure how we have reached this point already. Everyone says the time goes so fast when you have kids and I always knew they were telling the truth but it is hard to comprehend until you experience it for yourself. Never before have I considered myself an outwardly emotional person. I have always been good at keeping my emotions in check until I am on my own (psychologists make of that what you want, I like it that way). However, today I cried when I picked Ellie up from her last day at preschool. I cried when her key worker asked all the kids to say goodbye to her and in unison they all responded with ‘Goodbye Ellie!’ Truthfully Ellie isn’t even that bothered and I think that is a good thing. She is finally excited about starting school and for her, the last day of preschool means she is also a little closer to that start date. She also comprehends the idea of the school holidays now. In the car on the way home she told her little sis that now she gets to spend all her time having fun with her before she starts school. I might remind Ellie of that after her and Trix have had their 3578th fight of the holidays.
Another New Beginning
Of course with every end is a new beginning. This time in the form of school. I may not be psychologically ready to see Ellie in her school uniform eager to see what she can learn, the friends she can make; but Ellie is ready. She has out grown preschool and she is showing signs of needing much more stimulation, of more independence. She certainly has a thirst to learn and it is a thirst that is only going to be quenched in a school environment. I will miss her; Trixie will miss her. But in the long run it is going to be such an amazing time to be able to watch her grow into the beautifully kind and gentle young lady she is already showing she can be.